I dont know what it is but it seems like everytime, my father, tells me to do something or looks at me with hate or he has hate in his tone of voice. I can tell when things are cool with somepeople, becuz its like a change in the air around me. Kinda like a emotional spider sense. Which is a dumb word for it but anywho, yeah me and my father has never been the best of buddies, and i dont WANT to start now he had 19 years to do that shit, but has ever came time help me no, has he ever come to me and asked if i needed anything, no. It seems like he can be nice to everyone else but me, and i can see threw his eyes of lies. He can never gain back my respect for him, never. It just makes me angry everyday because i have to put up with his bukkshit. im threw

Friends are going to a club today, well i should say tonight. I really dont want to go, the whole club stuff doesnt mesh with me really good. I really never been. Plus i dont think i can dance, or i can dance i just dont like dancing in front of people plus where going to a club. I dont even know any clubs here. Not a single on. Im like those people who are scared, to go to clubs because im scared i might get shot. Well i did go to the club in TN, but thats like family owned/people i grew up with. But here there are so many clubs, and some i heared of, and some are im like WTF. Anywho i have no ideal how im getting there either. I dont even know who all is going that can drive. Now i got to go find something cool to wear so i dont look like a lame. I dont want to go, but i guess i can go because after this everybody will be gone. off to school .

i think i broke something in my foot, end of story.

I was lookin for a community to help figure out a problem that i have. Its like there is a point where you can be to nice to a person and let them get away with alot of things. Like if someone boss's you around you would tell that person. Or if someone likes you and wants an answer back right away, but you have no answer because your always thinkin its a trap. Yeah there is alot of thinks you can take and there is alot of things you can dish out im bored now!

im so sleepy, but i must do research. There is big news on the TV again. And its not good news at all. Well i dont know what im going to do today, but im sure i should have fun. I have to come to a conclusion today, about something that happen yesterday. But hey like always im the only one that can slove theses problems. And which always seems to pop up when im having a good fuckin day. Its kinda sad, and it gets me kinda angry, but hey its all my fault.....i should shut that down or tried to say something along time ago.

Well i been living off AFI music for the past 5 days. I also seen 2 really great movies. I seen UltraViolet, and V for Vendetta. V was pretty, good, it was one of those message movies i dont know what i just spelled, but yeah there some thing about that movie, that tells me something. Besides the fact of going bowling there is nothing new with my life. I got an amp from my friend so im tryin to learn some new songs. I learned Maps, and now i learn i dont recall the title but i know how to play it.

Fuck. Taco bell didnt call me back, that makes me sad. Yes indeed. Well im over it now. Other news, i have this feeling in my heart, that only someone that truly loves me, can fill. I think she knows who that person is, or does she i really dont know. This life boy there is some many rules and things you cant do and shit. But yeah i think im going to the store to buy some finger nail polish, black of corse

This sucks nobodys here and i have nothing to do, nothing nothing nothing, at all besides sit eat and sleep. Which i already did.

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